I’m trying to explain to my mother, but I haven’t actually been lazy, that I’ve been into social serveces and healthcare and applying jobs, but since I’m still unimpoyed that of course means I’m just a waste of space.

And oh funny, she said that if I needed anything I could ask for money, and well, I asked that maybe I could get an internet connection to my grandma’s (would make applying jobs and everything easier), but that’s 20e per month so that’s a no.

I don’t feel like I’m entittled, I’m not entittled to anything. The fact that my grandma let’s me live at hers is already beyond kind, because I don’t have any other place to be, but mum did say I could ask and I asked and somehow it does hurt when se said no.

I feel like genius, I knew the answer in the radio riddle game, and those are always so hard that I’ve never even had anything to guess. For reason I just new today after the second hint (in a game that has ten hints and all are ridiculously difficult) that it was mushroom called Gyromitra esculenta, which in Finnish they call as “an earmushroom”.

It’s ridiculously toxic, but still considered as one of the most delicious mushrooms ever O_o I’ve always wondered who was the first person who figured out that, since if you spent forever boiling these things and make it sure that you don’t touch them, inhale the boiling water or anything Lol. Seriously, if you eat it raw you just die, your liver will stop working.

But I do admit they are delicious. 

And I, as a poor soul I am, fell for the deliberate media confusion around Benedict Cumberbach’s villain. I seriously thought that twist can’t be the obvious one, but it was, it was and I feel like someone would smacked a cold fish against my face, because what the hell I was expecting? An actually surprising twist that made sense?

I don’t even feel like writing blunt spoilers, because there is nothing to spoil. Only way to get surprised is to have some hopes.

Oh dear lord what

Ok, that’s just it. You know, I don’t particularly like ranting, about fanstuff at least. Might like defending some things sometimes and it might get a bit ridiculous and heated, but I generaly try to stay away from things I didn’t like that much and focus on things that I like.

In this case it’s sort of diffucult, as the fandom in hand is Star Trek. One of the biggest things I’ve had in my life. A fandom I reflect all the other fandoms agains, even if I don’t show it too often. Star Trek that makes me happy and angry and philosophican and campy and all that at the same time.

Do you even get how hard it is not to rant right now? Do you have a fraction of idea how hard it is not to get on floor and scream? And I didn’t even hate the first reboot movie, far from it! I disliked many of it aspects, but I see it in theathers twice, and I’ve watched it since numerous times, it was fun.

But Into Darkness isn’t. It’s just… just… just…

Ok. Breathe. Calm down. Didn’t like it. That’s it. Won’t say anything, I forbid myself of saying anything on the subject in next 6 months. I’ll watch DS9 and forget this thing ever happened.

OMG, I’m just finishing my first Legolas/Gimli fic ever. Funny thing that I got this done today, in 2013, since I’vee been thinking about this like 10 years. I just never got around it, I used to have an account in Loftis, the Finnish Lotr-fanfiction forum and I’ve been thinking about writing something for ages but just never felt right.

And apparently jossujb wasn’t my screenname in Loftis O_0 

Or maybe they’re just mover or deleted old accounts during the last 6 years I haven’t logged in, because I’ve used jossujb everywhere since 2003. Which is kinda sad, since I would want to change it ti something that’s not completely moronic ( or maybe even more moronic), but I’ve got so used to this that it feels like blasphemy.

But if I would change, I would change it to JetZone, because that’s both the most idiotic thing I’ve ever heard, but would also be 100% appropriate.

Would it be a good idea to put all my fics on AO3 even if they’re in Finnish? I just kinda realized I have about 200 fics posted as regular forum posts and you know, to me that doesn’t sound terribly stable xD

Or what ever, this is highly a hypothetical question anyway, because no matter what I think would be best I won’t do anything anyhow. 

Eaargh, and I haven’t drawn anything in couple days. Feel like a loser. I shouldn’t take it so seriously, but it always feels like I disappear from the face of earth if I don’t do something worth of showing every day.  

I think it’s quite obvious what my attitude towards my own writing is nowadays, when last two of my tittles are roughly translated “Straight from the ass” and “When things go absolutely nowhere”.

They’re running reruns of House on tv. For some reason my grandma yesterday just put it on and let me watch it while she played Solitaire in the kitchen. I haven’t even said I like that series, but no complaints. Though it was an episode of that time when House was dating Cuddy, so it wasn’t as good as it could have been.

I’m celebrating every moment I’m allowed to watch something I actually like.

Funny how House/Cuddy was good idea in theory, but how they actually did it was a series of out of character moments and almost painful grinching. Oh well. What do I care, I ship House/Wilson regardless. 

Point taken, though in these cases I was referring I know for a fact that they’re biological children and just decided to go this route. I haven’t dared to ask why, I’m not sure if it’s proper not. Don’t wanna sound rude.

Though you’re perfectly right about how normal it is to be friends a long time without knowing their name, unless you just happen to friend somebody in a setting that everybody has to introduce themselves, like first day in a new school or a hobby. I don’t know why, but when there is a point for casual conversation with new people (which in Finland is already quite rare) I don’t think I’ve ever introduced myself or asked anyones name… its weird, like you said, you can sort of get to know a person very well if you just happen to spent time in same places, but y’know, it’s sort of an paradox that if you don’t introduce yourself at the fist time it’s quite awkward to do it later either xD

Reminds me of how I never learned my roommate’s first name, though we lived together like two years and people I saw at the washing room were just that, people at the washing room, even though I did try to chat like a modern open minded person xD

Is it just me, or does anyone find it weird when small chidren call their parents with their first names?

I’m sorta in that age that many of my older friends have family now and I’ve just noticed this trend and I’m not sure if it’s some sort of statement or fashion thing or do I just know bunch odd people. 

I do remember that it was more common to swich swich into first name basis during the teen-age years, but that usually had a sort of cold vibe to it… at least many cases I can remeber. I started to call my mum “mutsi” and my father “faija” rather than “äiti” or “isä/iskä” I had used before. None of those words actually have a negative meaning, it really depends on a family and background, but at the time my mum did get offended that I just changed the word like that - and if I’m being completely honest that was my intention too.

But now I use “mutsi” or “faija” mostly out of habit and in a slightly ironic context, so it doesnt rub anyone the wrong way anymore. But I would think that if I called my mum with her first name, she would probably be deadly wounded. I don’t think I would do that even out of spite.

But guess young families are quite different nowadays. I guess if grandparets are really involved helping it’s less confusing to use just first names, ‘cause I know one case where young boy in one family called all women “mum” regardless of who they were, and that was simply because his grandma from mother’s side lived with them. Guess it kinda confuzed his little head when “mum” was used al the time for both his mum and grandma xD